Why, hello there.

Doing what I can to live my life and be grateful.

Vulnerability

There are days where you just want to rant. Rant about unnecessary things in life, all the unfairness, all the struggle, all the wishes. You know you shouldn’t talk about such things because you know you have more than what others have. But it just happens to be in the back of your mind. You feel as if.. If you told someone about the problems you may have, that person would see you differently. You may feel as if that person will see you as a selfish person, and that you just try to make excuses for the better. That vulnerability that we have is just locked inside until we can’t hold it in much longer.

If you’re still reading for some unknown reason, this is probably where I’ll be writing negatively from now on for this post and only this post. I just want to express myself to get it out of my system. And for those who know me well, I’m usually an optimistic person. But you have to understand that there are days of negativity that just bottles up somewhere. Anyway-

This is probably where I broke… But who can I talk to? This social media? It’s the closest I can get to releasing my thoughts without someone judging me to the point of seeing me differently than who I am now.

I’m scared. Quite honestly, I don’t know what I want anymore. I’m being stupid, being selfish, and maybe doing things for the wrong reasons.
There are days where I question myself. Am I a good friend? Do I deserve this? Maybe I deserve more? I thought I was a good person, maybe I’m just annoying. No one tells me. Birthdays are just days right? But why do I wish for more?
I’m sorry to those I may have mistreated. I don’t know what may have bugged you about me, and I know some of you are being nice when I am just annoying or too much to handle. But thank you for being around me and hiding what you had felt. I’d rather keep the memory of thinking people who I thought were friends are friends.

And I’ll end here. I might have exhausted what had gone through my mind for the next several months. Haha. Positivity, right? Life is hard, but we have to move on. Be the better person. Be someone that others see. I do more for people than they do for me. Why? Because I felt they deserve it. Maybe I don’t deserve the same back, but I still try. I try very hard. And yet… Why don’t feel as if it’s not enough?

This is as vulnerable as I can be… Who knew.

Smile. This word definitely helps during days where I doubt myself.

Smile with your head held high, and move forward.

:)

rolleypoleycoley:

shorm:

oxfordthecomma:

fidelcashf1ow:

fuckyeah1990s:

Smash Mouth - All Star (played in Mario Paint)

This is the only thing I’m listening to for the rest of the day.

The use of the yoshi sound effect was genius

oh my god the yoshi effect

That. Was. THE GREATEST THING I HAVE EVER SEEN IN MY LIFE.

grofjardanhazy:

Evolution of the Desk (1980-2014)

gif: grofjardanhazy, original video via Best Reviews

christianrsantoss:

Jiro is the fucking man

(Source: hastea)

harryll0yds:

hedgehog-goulash7:

preludes-and-prufrock:

awwdish:

thestraggletag:

thestraggletag:

submariet:

VAN EYCK

I lost it at the end.

Okay, I had to check out the Van Eyck thing. I was a bit in denial because, come on, every single person can’t look like President Putin!

There are no words to describe how wrong I was.

Reblogging this for my art history class this semester

buwhahaha

The art historian in me had to reblog this.

and people say disney reuses their faces, pff

(Source: cheekygeekymonkey)

nosleeptilbushwick:

this is absolutely incredible

(Source: sizvideos)

anglophilemeetsbibliophile:

abbyjean:

Charts from OKCupid, showing how straight women and men rate each other based on ages. For women, the men they find most attractive are roughly their own age. For men, the women they find most attractive are roughly the same age - 20 to 23 - regardless of the age of the man. (538)

THIS IS IMPORTANT